It just keeps getting worse.. Im not the daughter he wants and he makes that clear, everyday. I am not happy at home, and I havent been in awhile. I blew up at him today. The first time I blew up at him. Usually I just cry without him knowing, but this time I was yelling at him and bawling my eyes out. I dont like it at home, for more than one reason, and I leave for Shasta on thursday so I will be gone for 8 days, surrounded by homophobes and wont see any of my real friends, and possibly will be out of cell phone service. Idk if I can do that... And I might go to shellys, I might just run away and sleep at a park, havent decided yet, I just cant stay at home...