Friday, May 27, 2011

Everything!

Okay so first theres alot on my mind! Shall I share?
I think I shal!

  • Beauty-life vlogs! I really wanna start doing them! I dont know why, they just seem like fun!:D Maybe start like filming on my ipod/camera? :)
  • Nail polish-I just put some on, Red with gold shimmer on top. I kinda like really pretty nail polishes:P I should wear it more so I can get better at putting it on!
  • Seattle Center events! Theres like a 5k, an art contest, and such:D
Um. yeah... not as much as i thought...

But yeah!

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

So i was telling my dad about the times I stood up for things I believed in, he doesnt say anything but tell me I shouldnt. I tell him bout when I kept my mouth shut, he says good job. Wtf??? Thats not how its supposed to be.. Ya know??

Ever just have too much?

Too much going on? Too much to think about? Too much... just too much?

Yeah, never understood that before... Now I do.. This is crazy..

In middle school we used to stop doing work at about Memorial day... Now... its like... they kick it into overdrive... I am going to suffocate!!!

Gosh... Science-Making an instrument and write up a lab report, due on June 3, not even started
World History-Essay and Power Point due on June 1, pretty much done
Spanish-Powerpoint memorized, June 1


:'( I cant do this.

Gagas new cd

Well for my birthday back in March my sister Randi got me the new Lady Gaga CD that came out on monday (the 23rd) and it got here yesterday and I have been listening to it:D

I love Born this way (shocker:P) The Edge of Glory, and Bad Kids XD

The cd has reeallllyyy  odd songs.... like Government Hooker, Hair, ScheiBe, Bloody Marry, Bad Kids, Highway Unicorn, Heavy Metal Lover, and Electric Chapel.... WEIRD!


Oh, and I looked up what "SchieBe" and what it meant in German.... basically the chorus is "Shit, shit from mine, shit, from mine"...lol wut?

My week

Well, this is basically what my week looks like usually:

Monday-GSA (Gay Straight Alliance)

Tuesday-Glee <3

Wednesday-Youth Group :)

Thursday-Art Club! :)

Friday- Whatever I want!! :D

I am upset with myself that I havent been blogging...

Im sorry :(

Monday, May 23, 2011

Isabella D'este for Renaissance Idol

                        Isabella D’este should be the next Renaissance Idol
            The Renaissance was basically the rebirth of man involving arts, the beginning of the creation of modern history. It was more musical, artistic, creative and independent. Everyone was collectively, creating themselves individually. Expressing themselves, through music, or art, or writing. The Renaissance was a busy time, so many firsts, new experiences, discoveries, inventions, basically a big burst in technological and creative advancement for the future of our culture. This period was also focused on the achievements of humans. The Renaissance built itself an identity of rebirth, and discovery. There was a lot of change from the Medieval ways to the modern ways in society, they went from strict, to independent expression. The Renaissance was a crucial period for change.
                Christopher Columbus discovered America, because he was curious and explored. If he hadn’t… America wouldn’t be the America we know and love today. So, that was a big step! Michelangelo was busy painting the Sistine Chapel. The Sistine Chapel just happens to be the most well known Chapel in the Apostolic Palace. Michelangelo took four years to paint the  1,100m2 that he painted. William Shakespeare was writing his never-to-be-forgotten plays, like Romeo and Juliet and MacBeth. He was expressing himself through his playwriting. All of these discoveries, and forever remembered paintings and plays, are thanks to the creativity and expression that the Renaissance period promoted. As I’ve explained, the Renaissance was a very busy, creative, artistic, and expressive time. While also pushing aside the ways that were upon the city by Medieval Ways. In this day and time of 2011, people are definitely less expressive, and more scared of what people think. It's pretty safe to say that everyone expresses themselves in one way or another, whether its painting a mural somewhere,  showing something, or getting something across. Or writing about a love that one dreams of, in a play, writing about something you care deeply about. People are most definitely  influenced by the Renaissance in modern day, and that will never change.
            Isabella D'este was a big part of the Renaissance time period, and of this modern day world . She was a remarkable humanist and patron of the arts, and she deserved to be recognized way more than she is. Isabella was born into the Ferra family, in 1474. She was also the oldest of 6. Her father strongly believed in the equality for men and women, so of course he educated her. The possibilities of what people could do as individuals was amazing to her, she encouraged everyone to do big things with their lives. When she learned about it more and more she agreed with her father, that man and women should be equal. She grew up with a great knowledge about many things, and she enjoyed the benefits and a knowledge of classical education. She knew far more than any other woman her age when she was 16. When she was 16, she could sing, dance, play the lute, and intelligently debate and converse on politics with ambassadors. Isabella was also a very supportive patron of the arts, she collected local artists' art pieces, and displayed them in her home, which eventually turned in to a museum. Her house attracted many famous artists, musicians, and writers to their area. She also founded a school for young women to attend. This was a big part of the Renaissance because young women were able to learn and gain an education which was rare for most women of that time.
          Some characteristics the Renaissance idol should have would be devoted, powerful, respectful, responsible, intelligent, and courageous. These are some characteristics I believe the Renaissance Idol should have because they are characteristics everyone should have; especially the Renaissance Idol. A Renaissance Idol should especially have these cause an Idol is a role modle who is a people pleaser. Someone who people can look up to. Isabella D'este was dedicated to everything she did. She was so devoted to helping to get equality for men and women, she also loved helpIng local artists get their art the praise and publicity it needed by displaying it in her home. Isabella D'este best represents the Renaissance because she was devoted to having equal rights for men and women, she also supported the arts, she ruled Mantua and she was one of the smartest women in history.
            She was dedicated to helping men and women have equal rights, she was following in her father's footsteps. He was her major influence in this department because he was very passionate about this subject as well. Isabella personally received royal schooling, she studied Roman history. She helped get equality for men and women majorly by founding a school for young women. This was a huge deal back then because it was unheard of that women went to school, that was the man's job. It was known that the stereotype for a "Renaissance Man" classified her as well. When young women started to get an education, that’s when things started to change, they started being more independent. Isabella encouraged all women to break the traditional role. Women and the Renaissance were breaking the traditional role. Isabella also set fashion trends and standards that appeared very popular. She was also inventing dances. She had a good impact on all women, and was a major inspiration. Some people might say that it wasn’t right for the woman to have an education back then, and yes, this is understandable cause it was very unheard of then. Although, she majorly impacted this world, if it wasn’t for her, the way society looks at girls compared to guys wouldn’t be the same.
            Isabella D'este was a patron of the arts, which was the love and soul of the Renaissance. It's what the Renaissance was all about; lots of art, and creativity was contagious, and Isabella decided to display some of the art from local artists in her home. She ended up having so much amazing art from so many artists, that she turned her house into a museum. The museum attracted many artists, writers, sculptors, actors, and musicians from all around to their area, Isabella got to know most of them rather well. When all these artists and musicians came, and made the population grow, they just made the environment better. They were living there and creating their art there and becoming a part of the Renaissance. They helped the Renaissance grow. She helped the Renaissance grow. It is true that Isabella herself wasn’t known for being an artist, she was a singer, and musician though. She played the lute and was known to be physically attractive and had an angelic voice. Isabella was a big part of the arts during the Renaissance.
            She was the closest a woman came to writing history during the Renaissance. When she was sixteen years old she could sing, dance, play the lute, and intelligently debate with ambassadors. One of the strongest, and most powerful women of the Renaissance period by far. When her husband couldn’t rule, she did, and when she did, she signed a peace treaty and he got freed. When her husband was released, he was ill and weak, so he couldn’t rule for awhile, so she did. When Fransisco saw how intelligent and powerful her wife was, and that she was upstaging him, he was humiliated and furious. He stared being mean to her, and making fun of her. She knew she shouldn’t have to put up with him not appreciating her, so she was independent and went to Rome, where she was treated like a queen for all she's known for. She accomplished her life's dream and ruled a tiny part in Romanga, Solaria. She has obviously done a lot with her life. Much more than most women in the Renaissance period. Women back then didn’t do things like that, yes, most women, but Isabella D'este did.
            Without Isabella D'este, woman could not have had the equality  to men at the time they did, it would have taken way longer, and probably wouldn’t have gone as great. The Renaissance wouldn’t have been as incredible without her turning her house into a museum full of local artists work. She is an incredible woman, leader, and person. What a great role model she is model too, she has such a major influence on the Renaissance and how our world is today, she was a big deal who needs more recognition and credit for all she has done. Isabella D'este should obviously should be the next Renaissance Idol!

It is currently 4am on a monday...FML

Yeah so I have an essay on the Renaissance Idol whatever due in like three hours. So I took daddys advice and pulled an all nighter... STUPID! I finished it though, and I finished my spanish final earlier. Goodness. I also went for a run at about 2:30am... stupid... I pretty much came home having an asthma attack and threw up>> I am soooo stressed.... Oh, and in three hours and twenty minutes there is an exam on Romeo and Juliet. I didnt get the study guide for it cause I was late to school and yeah.... FML! Its an EXAM... not a test or quiz.... and its worth 200 points.... Grrrrrr! Oh! And tomorrow I have a job interview.... Grrrrr!!!! I sure as hell hope we dont have anything going on in science or I swear I'll lose it.

Friday, May 20, 2011

So much... So little blogging :(

I havent been on here recently. Probably because I have tried to start up a new blog, about my art and my art alone. ( mylifeasanartist.blogspot.com) I just dont know quite how to do it. I dont know how to arrange the pictures in a way that displays them good. OMG! BRAIN BLAST! I will upload them all to my DeviantArt account! Cause you can do poems and art and such on there and its like a blog!:D Then I can just send the link for my DeviantArt account to the lady I met at the Art Walk in Seattle on the last First Thursday!:D
Oh, and I am crazy busy! Like, everyday its like, dying my hair, youth group, dads birthday, Shellys house, my house, Maddy, skating, job interviews, whatever it is, its crazy busy lately!
Yesterday I dyed my hair :)
Its brown again, lol, I had to look professional for my job interview tomorrow:D Yeah, I am cleaning this guys house for 15$ an hour two days a week from 230-630!:D And from what I know so far, he is rich, has a beach house, a wife and three kids, probaly daughters, and he teaches in Yakima and hes going there tomorrow morning and his wife is taking the girls to their ranch to ride horses. They sound like an amazing family!
I love Youth Group!!! So much on my mind about that, I think I'll do a sperate post about Youth Group this past wednesday, it was awesome:D
Today at school we had the girls Molly and Lauren from the Kind Campaign, and Finding Kind, come to our school to talk about how vicious girls can be. We watched a film about it and it was good. I didnt think it was anything fabulous but I really hope it helped some girls at school. Girls are bitches... yeah. But I bawled my eyes out cause I cry when I see other people cry. Lol and we got a picture with Lauren, so im happy about that :)
Oh, and my daddys birthday is tomorrow:D 53! Tomorrow is also supposedly doomesday... we'll see about that.
And I said goodbye to Jameson...
Phil and I are talking again... hes amazing, and I want him always in my life.
Cory is such a sweetheart :)
I LOVE MUSIC! Such amazing songs at the moment... :D Also, I think I am the only person on the planet who doesnt enjoy parodys and such.
I miss tony :(
I relapsed twice
Omegle is awesome:D
Being asexual is ok!
Ice skating is AMAZING! I love it again :) :)
Oh, and June plans!!!! Shasta possibly, California possibly, Finals, projects, yearbooks, etc.
Goodness I think this deserves more posts :)

Friday, May 13, 2011

5K Komen for the cure walk:D

Yeah, basically what the title says. June 5, Seattle Center! I cant wait! I've been waiting forever to do a walk for breast cancer! Haha yeah, Im excited:D

New blog?

Well on the first thursday art walk I went on with Tony and Schnabel the other day, we met this artist, and she said that I should shoot her an email with some pictures of my work, or like a link to my blog. So I am thinking I should paint/draw more and then start a blog with my art on it.

Dont worry, I wont be neglecting this blog, but I will have another! :)

30 day song challenge-failed

day 01 - your favorite song-You cant stop the beat        
day 02 - your least favorite song Friday 
day 03 - a song that makes you happy More Beautiful You
day 04 - a song that makes you sad The way she feels    
day 05 - a song that reminds you of someone Beautiful, Beautiful
day 06 - a song that reminds you of somewhere Dog Days are Over
day 07 - a song that reminds you of a certain event Baby
day 08 - a song that you know all the words to When Im gone
day 09 - a song that you can dance to Hoedown Throwdown
day 10 - a song that makes you fall asleep My Immortal
day 11 - a song from your favorite band I'd come for you
day 12 - a song from a band you hate Welcome To The Black Parade
day 13 - a song that is a guilty pleasure The Climb
day 14 - a song that no one would expect you to love L.A. Song
day 15 - a song that describes you I feel pretty/Unpretty
day 16 - a song that you used to love but now hate Lips of an Angel
day 17 - a song that you hear often on the radio ET
day 18 - a song that you wish you heard on the radio More than a love song
day 19 - a song from your favorite album Arise
day 20 - a song that you listen to when you’re angry I hate everything about you
day 21 - a song that you listen to when you’re happy I could not ask for more-
day 22 - a song that you listen to when you’re sad Fucking Perfect-P!Nk
day 23 - a song that you want to play at your wedding Firework-Katy Perry
day 24 - a song that you want to play at your funeral The Time of my life-David Cook
day 25 - a song that makes you laugh Pants on the ground-Pants on the ground crew
day 26 - a song that you can play on an instrument Twinkle Twinkle little stars-Me
day 27 - a song that you wish you could play Bellas lulluby-Twilight
day 28 - a song that makes you feel guilty Comes and goes-Greg Laswell
day 29 - a song from your childhood I cant wait-Hilary Duff
day 30 - your favorite song at this time last year Gotta be somebody-Nickelback

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

This time

This time you've lost all my respect,
This time you've dishonored me,
Says you, and now its me whos the one who's wrecked,
There were days I would grovel at your feet, on my knees,
That I wouldn't thing twice, I'd do anything,
Not today, without you no more am I incomplete,
This time, I can admit, to myself, that you were just a fling,
Even though, I ran straight towards you, knowing you'd do this to me,
Knowing you'd give up on me this time,
Not tonite, will you be the reason I give up,
This time I grow
Grow, away from you,
Grow because of you,
Grow, grow, grow,
Gonna grow for no one but me,
Grow to write some new pages,
Grow and paint my new paintings,
Grow, grow, grow,
I used to break so easily, this time, once again, you broke me,
Before this time I'd be praying to get you back,
But that's just like slowly drowing,
Not today, this time, not gonna back track like that
Today, today, today,
This time, I'm gonna grow.

Sunday, May 8, 2011

First try!

Killah tube top
50 EUR - zalando.de

Old Navy racerback tank top
$17 - oldnavy.gap.com

Disney Couture vest
25 GBP - truffleshuffle.co.uk

Printed vest
25 GBP - warehouse.co.uk

Milly tiered skirt
346 EUR - my-wardrobe.com

Halston heritage
$431 - boutique1.com

Alice Olivia satin short
$155 - net-a-porter.com

TopShop pink tight
$12 - topshop.com

Christian Louboutin platform heels
$1,195 - footcandyshoes.com

Marni ballet shoes
$500 - net-a-porter.com

Christian Louboutin platform heels
495 GBP - brownsfashion.com

Ed hardy heels
$99 - edhardyshop.com

Converse trainer
$20 - hottopic.com

Tote bag
170 GBP - karenmillen.com

ASOS clutch
100 GBP - asos.com

Mar Y Sol straw tote
$88 - nordstrom.com

Don t Ask Amanda backpack bag
$50 - generalpants.com.au

Isharya engraved ring
$165 - net-a-porter.com

Juicy couture jewelry
$148 - nordstrom.com

Jewelry
98 GBP - zentosa.com

Saskia Diez beaded jewelry
$65 - lagarconne.com

Disney Couture engraved ring
30 GBP - mylabel.co.uk

Disney Couture platinum necklace
27 GBP - mylabel.co.uk

ALDO beaded jewelry
$18 - aldoshoes.com

Forever21 wrap around bracelet
$7.80 - forever21.com

H M metal ring
3.99 GBP - hm.com

Tsumori Chisato scarve
$245 - openingceremony.us

Marc by Marc jacob
$28 - nordstrom.com

Fantas Eyes glass shade
$22 - endless.com

American Apparel hair clips accessory
$14 - americanapparel.net

Purple shade
$7.99 - gogglesandglasses.com

Dorothy Perkins waist belt
5 GBP - dorothyperkins.com

H M cap hat
3.99 GBP - hm.com

Gothic glove
3.95 GBP - chaoticclothing.co.uk

2011 Makeup Trends
$19 - squidoo.com

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

If I should have a daughter

If I should have a daughter, instead of mom, shes going to call me, point B, because that way she knows that no matter what happens at least she can always find her way to me, and I'm gonna paint the solar systems on the backs of her hands, so she has to learn the entire universe, before she can say, 'Oh I know that like the back of my hand', and shes gonna learn, that this life, will hit you hard, in the face,  wait for you to get back up, just so it can kick you in the stomach, but getting the wind knocked out of you is the only way to remind your lungs how much they like the taste if air. there is hurt, here, that can not be fixed by band aids or poetry, so the first time she learns that wonder woman isn't coming, I'll be sure she knows she doesn't have to wear the cape all by herself, cause no matter how wide you spread your fingers, your hands will always be too small to catch all the pain you want to heal, believe me, I've tried, and baby, I'll tell her, don't keep ur nose up in the air like that, I know that trick, I've done it a million times, you're just smelling for smoke so you can follow the trail back to a burning house so you can find the boy, who lost everything in the fire, to see if you can save him, or else, find the boy who lit the fire in the first place, to see, if you can change him, but I know she will anyways, so instead, I'll always keep an extra supply of chocolate, and rain boots near by, because there is no heartbreak that chocolate cant fix. Okay, theres a few heartbreaks that chocolate can't fix. But that's, what the rain boots are for, because rain, will wash away everything if you let it, I want her to look at the world through the underside of a glass bottom boat, to look through a microscope at the galaxies that exist on the pin point of a human mind, because that's the way my mom taught me, that there'll be days like this, days like this my momma said, when you open your hands to catch and wind up with only blisters and bruises, when you step out of a phone booth and try and fly and the very people you want to save are the ones standing on your cape, when your boots will fill with rain, and your up to your knees in disappointment, those are the very days you have all the more reason to say thank you, the way the ocean refuses to stop kissing the shoreline no matter how many times it sent away, you will put the wind, in windsom, lose some, you will put the star, in starting over and over, and no matter how many land mines erupt in a minute, be sure ur mind lands on the beauty of this funny place called life, and yes, on a scale of one to over trusting I am pretty damn naive, but I want her to know that this world is made of sugar, it can crumble so easily, but don't be afraid to stick ur tongue out and taste it, but baby, I'll tell her, remember, your mama is a worrier, and your papa is a warrior, and you are the girl with small hands and big eyes who never stops asking for more, remember that good things come in threes and so do bad things and always apologize when you've done something wrong, but don't you ever apologize for the way your eyes refuse to stop shining, your voice is small, but do you ever stop singing, and when they finally hand you heartache, when they slip war and hatred under your door, and offer you hand outs on street corners, of sinisism and defeat, you tell them, that they, really outta meet, your mother.

Sunday, May 1, 2011

You're the bitch

So.... You're the bitch, who saw the bitch, who told the bitch that I was a bitch. If I'm a bitch then you're a bitch for calling me a bitch. Your mom is a bitch for having a bitch, your dad is a bitch for fucking a bitch. Well listen bitch, it takes a bitch to know a bitch... so who's the bitch now, bitch?
I feel so different than all the other teenagers around, but i know, somewhere out there, theres another person who feels the same way. Im more romantic than lusty, rarely horney, yet with the right person i am willing to have sex with, making out is rather gross, foreplay isnt that fun, but snuggled up with a blanket on the couch watching a disney movie, or laying on a feild of grass at a park and listening to good music while sharing headphones, or just plain hanging out sound like the best things in the world. I am fairly certain these arent things that most teenage guys would enjoy, nor do, but I am okay with that. And I am pretty certain the only reason I am going boy to boy so quick lately is because I am lonely... I just want someone to put me first, to make me their number one. To walk to my house in the rain when Im having a bad day. To freaking care when Im having a bad day. To put up with me, and everything I come with, with what ive gone through, to what im doing, where i am, and where Im going. And to see me at my worst when I'm on my period or sick or going through something and just be able to say at the end of the day that he loves me. This all may be and probably is too much to ask at only 15, but I hope that I will be lucky enough to have someone like this, boy or girl, when i grow old.